“YAHUAH will perfect that which concerns me: Your mercy, O YAHUAH, endures forever.”
— Tehilliym (Psalms) 138:8
This past week has been one of the most spiritually stretching, emotionally intense, and faith-defining stretches of my life.
It’s now been nearly three weeks since the ER visit and the initial confusion about my pregnancy. And despite the ups and downs—the bleeding, the clotting, the waiting, the dreams—I have seen YAHUAH’s hand in every part. I am still pregnant. And more than that—I am being refined in the fire.
💧 Bleeding, Rest & the Mystery of the Womb
This week brought another wave of bleeding—intermittent, without pain, and often triggered by physical activity or stress. Each time I rest, the bleeding slows or even stops completely. This pattern aligns with what many experience when dealing with a subchorionic hematoma (SCH), though I haven’t received an official diagnosis.
Still, the clots I’ve passed have been unsettling. There have been moments—especially after particularly stressful days with the kids or preparing for our RV transition—when fear crept in and tried to overtake me. But each time, I ran back to the feet of YAHUAH.
He has sustained me. He has sustained this pregnancy.
💤 Dreams, Discernment & Deep Revelation
This past week brought dreams—some encouraging, some disturbing.
One was a vivid, almost prophetic dream involving my daughter. She was climbing a tree like a monkey, high and fast. I watched her from both within the dream and as if it were an old black-and-white home video. She let go—dangling, face-down—but wasn’t afraid. I caught her foot gently and helped her down. She was unharmed.
I believe this dream reflects what I’m currently walking through—trying to hold it all together, watching what feels out of control, and yet ultimately realizing that YAHUAH is allowing me to participate in protecting, guiding, and gently lowering what feels risky or unknown. Our daughter was safe. So is this baby—in His hands.
Another dream, darker in nature, seemed to represent spiritual warfare. A prisoner broke loose from his chains just enough to strangle someone—leaving behind only a giant green eye. I awoke to more bleeding. But I rebuked the enemy, prayed fervently, and the bleeding once again slowed.
This is not just physical. This is spiritual. And I’m in the midst of it.
🕊️ Faith Over Fear, Again & Again
There have been moments of peace so thick I could feel it like a blanket… and moments of panic where I had to fight to take every thought captive. But no matter what, YAHUAH continues to remind me:
“Now belief is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen.”
— Ivriym (Hebrews) 11:1
“Being confident of this very thing, that he which has begun a good work in you will perform it until the day of Yahusha Ha’Mashiach.”
— Philippians 1:6
“Baruk are they that have not seen, and yet have believed.”
— Yochanon (John) 20:29
Preparing for Exodus
As our move-out day draws closer and our new journey begins, I’m learning that this season is not about being in control. It’s about trusting Him with every step. We’ve simplified. We’ve downsized. And now, as a family of five (seven, counting the baby and our two cats!), we’re about to enter a whole new way of living—closer to creation, closer to YAHUAH, and more available for ministry.
This entire pregnancy has mirrored our journey: unexpected, full of warfare, dependent on Yah, and rich in mercy.
Even As I Write This…
Even as I write this, I am bleeding again. But I will not let that stop me from believing. From testifying. From clinging to the promises of YAHUAH. This journey has been anything but predictable, but it has been filled with reminders of His presence. Messages from loved ones, like my sister-in-law just last night, reminded me that bleeding does not always mean loss. Her gentle words were a nudge from YAHUAH—a wink that I am not alone in this. That even in the unknown, His mercy still flows. So I will keep going. I will keep writing. I will keep believing—for life, for healing, for the perfect work He is doing in my womb.
“For we walk by belief, not by sight”
— Qorintiym Sheniy (2 Corinthians) 5:7
This journey hasn’t been easy. The ups and downs. The physical symptoms. The dreams. The confusion. But through it all, I’ve learned something deeper: faith isn’t passive—it’s active. It presses forward, even when the world and your body are screaming otherwise.
I am still choosing to declare life.
I am still choosing to speak the promises of YAHUAH over this womb.
I am still choosing to trust that what He has begun, He is faithful to complete.
“Baruk (blessed) is she who believed: for there shall be a performance of those things which were told her from YAHUAH.”
— Luqas (Luke) 1:45
Let this be a witness, not just for me, but for you, achoti. Even when the bleeding hasn’t stopped. Even when the world says it’s over. If YAHUAH has spoken life—believe Him.
🙏🏽 Final Reflection & Prayer
If you’re walking through something similar—uncertainty in pregnancy, unexplained bleeding, or medical confusion—I want to remind you: you are not alone.
Our Aluah sees you. He is not deaf to your cries. He is not confused by your symptoms. He knows the beginning and the end. And He will sustain what He has planted.
Prayer:
YAHUAH, thank You for the life growing inside me. Thank You for walking with me through the valley of uncertainty and showing me again and again that You are faithful. I surrender this child to You. I surrender my body, my emotions, and my plans to You. Strengthen me to walk by faith, not by sight. Rebuke the devourer. Heal my womb. Guard this baby. And use this story to awaken, comfort, and encourage others who are searching for hope.
In Yahusha’s Name, Ahmayn!
To the one who needs this reminder today: He is not finished. He sees. He knows. He will perfect that which concerns you.
Please leave a comment below, share your testimony, or email me directly if you’re going through something similar.
Let’s walk this narrow path together.
Email: Shalum@SheSingsForYah.com
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