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A testimony of belief, life, and trusting the voice of YAHUAH over the report of man.

“Now belief is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen.”

— Ivriym (Hebrews) 11:1

🌿 A Testimony Written in Real Time

As I write this, I am currently 6 weeks and 2 days pregnant, according to the best estimation we have based on ovulation and intimacy timing. Because of my irregular periods, it’s been especially difficult to date things precisely. My cycles have never followed a 28-day pattern, and for years I’ve dealt with inconsistency — making this pregnancy even more difficult for doctors to “measure.”

But YAHUAH is not the author of confusion.

He is the Creator of life — and He speaks peace in the middle of storms.

This is the testimony of how I chose to believe before the heartbeat.

🕊 Clarifying the Timeline: What the Ultrasounds Actually Meant

Through prayerful tracking and reflection, here’s what I now know:

April 11 or 12: Last known day of my last menstrual period.

April 14–15, 2025: We believe this is when conception most likely occurred.

April 16, 2025: Estimated date of fertilization.

So, when we went to the ER on May 18, I would have been around 4 weeks and 4 days pregnant. At that stage, it is completely normal for a transvaginal ultrasound to show only a gestational sac. The yolk sac and fetal pole are rarely visible that early.

Then, on May 23, I was given an abdominal ultrasound at about 5 weeks and 2 days pregnant. Again, this was very early, and abdominal ultrasounds are not as accurate as transvaginal ones, especially in the first trimester.

In most healthy pregnancies, the yolk sac or fetal pole doesn’t appear until around 5 weeks 5 days to 6 weeks+, depending on ovulation and implantation timing.

➡️ So, what they saw wasn’t evidence of a failed pregnancy — it was just too early.

💬 The Diagnosis I Refused to Receive

Here’s what happened:

April 26 — I took my first Clearblue digital pregnancy test, and it said “PREGNANT.”

May 18 — I began bleeding heavily with clots. We went to the ER. My hCG level was 1144. Ultrasound showed a gestational sac only, no yolk sac.

May 21 — I was prescribed progesterone by my midwife, but was still receiving conflicting information.

May 22 — hCG dropped to 251.

May 23 — hCG dropped again to 108 followed by an abdominal ultrasound that showed “nothing”.

May 23 (evening) — I received a text message from midwife diagnosing me with a molar pregnancy and advising me to come in for D&C follow-up.

But something didn’t sit right in my spirit.

I had never received a transvaginal ultrasound, which is more accurate in early pregnancy. The timing of everything felt premature. Deep down, I knew this diagnosis didn’t align with what YAHUAH had shown me in prayer.

So I chose not to accept the diagnosis — and I cried out to YAHUAH for confirmation.

⚠️ Important note:

The diagnosis of a molar pregnancy was especially confusing — because dropping hCG levels are not consistent with molar pregnancy. In fact, it’s quite the opposite.

In most cases of molar pregnancy, hCG levels skyrocket rapidly due to abnormal tissue growth.

My levels, however, were falling — which pointed more to an early or misdated pregnancy rather than molar.

That alone was a red flag 🚩

But more than that — my spirit was unsettled. And YAHUAH is not the author of confusion. I asked Him for clarity. And He answered in a way that only He could…

🌞 The Dream: A Sonogram and Worship in the Sunroom

On the morning of May 29, after crying out to YAHUAH in desperation for clarity, I was given a dream that felt like a love letter from Heaven.

I was sitting in a sunroom — a place of light, clarity, and peace. It wasn’t dark or hidden. It felt wide open, like a sacred space prepared for truth and revelation. I was alone, waiting — and it felt symbolic, like I was in a posture of receiving.

Suddenly, my husband entered the room with urgency and gentleness. His voice was steady but full of weight. He looked at me and said:

“I have to show you something.”

It felt like YAHUAH was speaking through him:

“I’m about to reveal what man cannot.”

He stood above me, and I was looking up toward him as he held something in his hands — a set of ultrasound photos. But these weren’t ordinary images.

The background was dark, but overlaid across the screen was a bright, green, matrix-like glow — almost like encoded light. It reminded me instantly that what we see with human eyes is often a coded illusion. Man may not perceive it, but YAHUAH sees the truth behind the veil.

And there — right in the middle of that green-glowing sonogram — was a fully developed, beautiful baby.

Not a dot. Not a blur.

A clear, radiant child — alive and written into YAHUAH’s plan.

I remember feeling in that moment that this wasn’t just a picture — it was a message. A confirmation. A divine unveiling. This baby is real, and this baby is seen by YAHUAH, even when man says otherwise.

My husband and I both looked at the image in reverence.

And then we did the only thing that felt right.

We began to praise and worship YAHUAH together.

Right there in the sunroom — before the battle had ended, before the world had confirmed anything — we lifted our voices in praise.

It was joyful. It was intimate. It was qadash.

And when I woke up, I was in tears.

But this time — not out of fear, but relief, joy, and peace.

Because the night before, I had prayed,

“Please make it clear.”

And He did.

This dream felt like a sacred unveiling. A reminder that what YAHUAH conceives under His covering cannot be undone.

He sees. He speaks. He confirms.

And this child — this life — is not forgotten.

✨ Formed in the Secret Place

I believe with all my heart that YAHUAH is bringing Scripture to life inside me — literally. I couldn’t shake the feeling that this baby is being hidden for a reason… formed in a place no one else can see, because that’s exactly what His Word says.

“My frame was not hidden from you, when I was made in secret, and skillfully wrought in the lowest parts of the earth. Your eyes did see my substance, yet being imperfect; and in your cepher all my members were written…”

— Tehilliym (Psalm) 139:15–16

Right now, no one else may be able to “see” this baby — not the doctors, not the scans — but I believe YAHUAH does.

Because He formed life in the secret place.

And that is what I’m holding onto.

🧪 You Are Not Alone: Real Stories of Misdiagnosis

As I researched more, I found story after story of women who were misdiagnosed early — told they were miscarrying, had a blighted ovum, or a molar pregnancy — and were pressured into terminating.

But many of these women chose to wait, pray, and trust YAHUAH. And in time, they saw:

Healthy heartbeats that had simply taken longer to appear. Babies measuring perfectly at their next scan. Wrong dates, wrong assumptions, and wrong reports.

Here are a few of the testimonies that strengthened me:

A woman told her pregnancy was a “blighted ovum” now has a healthy baby girl.

Another whose hCG dropped was later told the baby had reattached — a miracle the doctor couldn’t explain.

One woman with irregular cycles was told to expect a miscarriage… and gave birth months later to a strong baby boy.

These testimonies reminded me:

The medical system is flawed. But YAHUAH is faithful.

🕊 The Hebrew Midwives: Choosing Life in a Culture of Death

In Shemoth (Exodus) 1, Pharaoh commanded the Ivri (Hebrew) midwives to kill the Hebrew sons.

But they feared YAHUAH more than Pharaoh.

“But the midwives feared Elohiym, and did not as the king of Mitsrayim commanded them, but saved the male children alive.”

— Shemoth (Exodus) 1:17

Because of their bold obedience, YAHUAH honored and blessed their households.

Today, we are facing the same spiritual choice — to trust the voices of Pharaoh (medical systems, fear, urgency) or to trust the still, clear voice of YAHUAH that says:

“I give life.”

📖 What I’ve Learned: Faith in Action

Here’s what I now carry in my womb and in my spirit:

Faith is choosing to believe YAHUAH before the evidence arrives. Children are a gift, not a calculation.

“Lo, children are a heritage of YAHUAH: and the fruit of the womb is his reward.”

— Tehilliym (Psalms) 127:3

YAHUAH is not bound by hCG numbers. He is the author of life. Medical tools have limits — but YAHUAH is limitless. The womb is a spiritual battlefield — and belief is our shield.

📜 Scripture That Sustain Me

“Baruk are they that have not seen, and yet have believed.”

— Yahuchanon (John) 20:29

“Being confident of this very thing, that he which has begun a good work in you will perform it until the day of Yahusha Ha’Mashiach.”

— Pilippiym (Philippians) 1:6

“YAHUAH is not a man, that he should lie… has he said, and shall he not do it?”

— Bemidbar (Numbers) 23:19

“Trust in YAHUAH with all your heart; and lean not unto your own understanding.”

— Mishlei (Proverbs) 3:5–6

“He makes the barren woman to keep house, and to be a joyful mother of children. Halal YAHUAH.”

— Tehilliym (Psalms) 113:9

🧭 Letting Go of Man’s Report

After receiving yet another confusing update from the new midwife team — this time stating that both my hCG and progesterone were “very low” — something in me shifted.

Despite clearly explaining my estimated conception and implantation dates, and emphasizing that I’m only around 6 weeks and 2–5 days, their response felt rushed, vague, and out of alignment with everything YAHUAH has shown me.

I had asked for clarity:

“Was the number 8 referring to hCG or progesterone?”

But the response didn’t address that clearly. Instead, I was told that “both are low” — with no data, no breakdown, just a vague summary and a note that the report is unofficial.

And yet…

I still feel pregnant.

My symptoms are increasing.

I’ve had dreams.

I’ve had confirmations.

I’ve heard His voice.

And in that moment, I realized:

Maybe I’m not meant to seek further confirmation from man.

Maybe the confirmation already came — through the still small voice of YAHUAH, the peace that surpasses understanding, and the radiant image of a baby formed in the secret place.

I will continue to take care of my body. I will continue to pray.

But I am no longer chasing lab numbers to validate what YAHUAH has already planted.

🙏 A Prayer for Every Woman Waiting in the Unknown

Father YAHUAH,

You see us in the secret place.

You hear every whisper, every weeping prayer, every heartbeat — even the ones we cannot yet detect.

I lift up every mother who is walking through uncertainty, misdiagnosis, or fear.

Cover her with peace.

Cancel every lie spoken over her womb.

Let her walk by faith and not by sight.

May she, too, believe before the heartbeat — and see Your promise fulfilled.

In the Name of Yahusha Ha’Mashiach, Amein.

🕯️ Will You Share Your Story?

Have you been misdiagnosed? Are you praying for a miracle?

Reach out. Share your story.

Let’s stand together in belief, because faith comes by hearing, and hearing by the Word of YAHUAH.

🎥 I’ll be sharing the full testimony and dream soon on my YouTube channel — click here to subscribe.

Until then…

I will wait on YAHUAH.

I will speak life.

And I will believe before the heartbeat.