“Now belief is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen.”
— Ivriym (Hebrews) 11:1, את Cepher
There is a kind of belief that only grows in the wilderness — when nothing around you makes sense, and yet something inside of you refuses to let go.
That’s the kind of belief I’m walking in now.
A Seed of Joy, Planted in Faithfulness
The night this child was conceived, there was joy. Real joy — not just between my husband and me, but joy in YAHUAH. We were in a place of peace, laughter, worship, and love. We truly believe that night was blessed by our Creator — a moment of oneness under His covering, and a seed planted in covenant.
That’s the memory I’ve held onto during the days when my belief has felt tested. When the reports didn’t sound good. When the bleeding made me question. When the silence from doctors tried to drown out the whisper of YAHUAH.
But I know what that night was. I know Who was present. And I know that YAHUAH doesn’t bless in vain.
What Is Belief, Really? (Emunah)
In the original Hebrew, the word used in place of “faith” is emunah. Emunah isn’t just an abstract feeling — it means steadfastness, firmness, trustworthiness, active belief, and covenant loyalty.
This kind of belief doesn’t just say, “I hope it works out.” It says, “I will stand firm, obey, and trust even when I can’t see.”
And that’s the kind of belief YAHUAH is forming in me through this trial.
“For we walk by belief, not by sight.”
— 2 Corinthians 5:7
The Battle Over the Unseen
Lately, I’ve felt the weight of spiritual warfare — like the enemy has been trying to wear me down, little by little. I’ve felt my defenses slipping. But YAHUAH, in His mercy, reminded me through dreams, through His Word, and through the Ruach Ha’Qodash that I cannot drop the sword in this hour.
“The trying of your belief works patience…”
— Ya’aqov (James) 1:3
This season has shown me how real the battle is — not just for my body, but for my peace, my purpose, and the next generation. I’ve come to see that this isn’t just about me. It’s about legacy. It’s about obedience. It’s about the enemy trying to destroy what YAHUAH is forming before it has a chance to take root.
Belief Is Our Weapon
In one of the dreams YAHUAH gave me last night, I saw Scriptures — actual verses, like written responses — being revealed as answers to my prayers. It was like He was saying, “My Word is your weapon. You cannot fight this without it.”
I now understand that belief is more than silent hope. It’s emunah. It’s action. It’s substance. It’s what I cling to when everything else falls away. And though I can’t see the full picture yet, I believe that YAHUAH is faithful.
“They that wait upon YAHUAH shall renew their strength…”
— Yeshayahu (Isaiah) 40:31
To the One Who’s Also Waiting
If you’re reading this and you’re in a place of uncertainty — waiting for breakthrough, for healing, for life — I want you to know: you’re not alone.
The world may tell you to give up. The flesh may say there’s nothing to hold onto. But the Word of YAHUAH says otherwise.
“Wait on YAHUAH: be of good courage, and he shall strengthen your heart: wait, I say, on YAHUAH.”
— Tehilliym (Psalm) 27:14
Cling to His promises. Declare them. Speak life over what feels dead. Prophecy to dry bones. You are not forgotten. You are not abandoned. And no matter how dark the season may seem, YAHUAH is still planting things in you that will one day bear fruit.
May we all learn to walk by emunah, not by sight.
To hope with purpose.
To trust with boldness.
And to love YAHUAH with all our hearts, even in the unseen.
I write, dream, and sing for Yahuah 